Today is the day I have dreaded for the last 80 days (yes...Turner is 80 days old today)!
I am a pretty positive person and like this blog to be pretty positive as well...but today is a day I would like to complain and not sugar coat anything!
I miss my buddy! Today is his first day @ daycare and even though he left the house smiling and Tate dropped him off and he was so excited...I still cry thinking I don't get to spend every waking moment with him.
I cried when Tate left, I cried on my way to work and now I cry sitting in my office writing this and pumping!
Everyone says it will get better...and I know it will! I just know today and tomorrow will be hard and probably next week since that will be my first full week back!
I'm grateful I have a job and we have an amazing person taking care of Turner...but that doesn't mean I don't miss him and want to be around to see all his smiling face!
Yesterday I tried to soak in every ounce of him! For one of his naps...we laid together on the couch. He had already fallen asleep and I just was starting to drift off...enjoying every second of it...when our stupid smoke detector decided to inform me that it had a low battery. HOW ANNOYING! I brushed it off thinking it will go off again in a few hours...NOPE!! Went off again a minute later and then another minute later.
Woke me up, woke Turner up and made Mya go in a frenzy.
So that ruined that moment because I had to get up and change the battery and Turner wasn't all about napping anymore then.
So I guess when I pick him up in the evenings and weekends...our time together is so much more precious! I can't wait to pick him up and hope he's super excited to see his mama!
Note to any other new mama's out there who go back...there is no point in wearing makeup your first day back...it will all come off anyway!!!
PS...is it 4 yet?
I just found your blog through MN Bloggers - so cute!
ReplyDeleteNot long ago, I went though the "dreaded going back to work after having a little one" I am not going to lie and tell you it gets easier, it doesn't, in my opinion. It does get better though. I still have a random day where I cry my whole way to work - but, at the same time I know this is what's best for our family right now. You will feel better soon... I will send positive thoughts your way!
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ReplyDeleteI was dreading this day for you - I still remember the first days dropping my girls off at daycare. I've never missed something so much in my life after leaving the building.
Hang in there, Mama!
aw, our office manager just had a baby and i remember her first day back. :(
ReplyDeleteshe's been back full time for 3 mo and finally broke down and asked to take wednesdsays off / to work from home so she can have more than just the weekend to spend w/ baby & family. our boss agreed and i'm happy for her because i know how tough it is for her every day. maybe you'd be able to work something out like that w/ your place?
either way...hang in there mama!
I feel you hun and I promise it does get easier.
ReplyDeleteIt's good you went back on Thursday and only have two days then you have the whole weekend.
Thinking of you, ask your daycare person to send pictures that helped me.
Awwwwwwww!! Thinking of you today :-( Just think how wonderful it will be to pick him up in a few hours and also to spend a lot of time with the little dude this weekend!!
ReplyDeleteI cried when I went back too... And my husband was able to work from home and watch our daughter! My coworker said something that stuck with me on my first day back, it may not get easier but it will never get harder. I never wanted to be a working mom but I had an amazing job. I lasted 8 months and then resigned because all I ever imagined doing was being at home when we had a family.
ReplyDeleteI hope 4pm comes quickly for you!
Meredith
Aww I'm sorry Mama! The first few days back are SO hard. I won't lie and say it gets "easy" but it does get easier. Or at least starts to feel like a new normal. He will be so excited to see you tonight :)
ReplyDeletewhat a rough thing! you will totally love your moments together and weekends tho!
ReplyDeletelove ur new design - great pictures you picked!
Mondays are always still hard for me after the weekends! Hang in there Mama!
ReplyDeleteOmigosh, the day I went back to work was the worst day of my life (and I realize I am very lucky that that is the worst thing that's happen to me but still). It does get easier but that doesn't help those first few days. I was literally paralyzed trying to leave the garage. I hope it went OK!
ReplyDeletebehind in reading blogs, but i am so happy that looking back you made it through the day and i was able to check in on you!
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